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SAA Scotland is an anonymous group. However, anonymity does not apply if you tell us you are involved in sexual violence or in any sexual activity involving minors. We will report any instances to the police.

Our personal stories

We are building a collection of our own stories of how our sexual behaviour became unmanageable and how SAA has helped us. Clearly, the names have been changed.

John's story

I think I started using p*rnography when I was 16. It was only when the internet came when I started to realise I had a problem. I would spend hours on it, rushing home from work if I knew my girlfriend wasn't going to be there, taking advantage of any opportunity I had. And things weren't going well sexually with my girlfriend so I used that as an excuse.

The internet opened up a new world of sexual possibilities I never thought existed. I built up fantasies involving anonymous sex and eventually acted on them. I would enter a trance like state, which ended immediately after the sexual act. Afterwards, I felt awful. I wanted to clean myself and rid myself of the guilt of being unfaithful. And I had to lie to my girlfriend about it.

I realised I couldn't stop doing this if the opportunity was there - if I was away from home on business. I really tried but kept doing it.

I found out about SAA through the internet but I didn't come for months. It took a long time to drop the denial about my addiction. When I did, I was amazed to hear others speak of the same problem. And it gave me hope for the first time as I could see other people who had recovered. The SAA programme is working for me. It's not easy but it works.